A Series of Unfortunate Events (vent?)

SOOO you might have noticed an absence in my presence on this site and although I wish I could blame it all on my hellish time existing right now, part of it was also that I've just been pre-occupied with other work that takes priority (boring adult stuff, except not rlly cuz making plushies is quite fun). I've really just been a constant on and off of working and like.. dying... so let's just get into the update!

SO first thing that went wrong.... my foot went OUCHIE I twisted it REALLY BAD (tore ligaments n shit) and it made me unable to walk for about 2 days, with difficulty walking on it for super long ever since. My dad says it should clear up after like... 6 weeks. That was the first thing, then the therapy session happened

Some of you (probably like 3) might have seen a now deleted blog post on my alt account talking about some mental health struggles I've been having and how I was hoping therapy would atleast help clear things up for me... what I instead got was my therapist being COMPLETELY out of character in the 5 years I've been with her, dismissing me entirely and making me feel like a freak monster major let down for me for sure.

Then all my mail orders got returned and I had to get the phone numbers of everyone I've had order from me in the past like 2 months (which isn't that many but it's still super tedious). In response though I finally made a spreadsheet with all the orders I've had in the past uhhh 2 1/2 years (which is about 130 something... thought it was more lmao)

This week my oldest cat Ginger had to be put down cuz her health has been declining for months now. And that's really messed me up too, trying to get a normal routine back but the sadness is always there before I close my eyes and sleep

Yeah just... not good overall. This and my big work load I've been having have been eating up my time like crazy!!! I was supposed to have march off but commissions keep coming in rahhh. I really wanna get back to posting here but I'm quite swamped! I also have a current challenge to draw (and post) tomoko every day so you can imagine that's like, a 5th of my day gone. I've also just been sleeping cuz grief is a bitch. But as I said to my friend, I ALWAYS BOUNCE BACK.
Expect more... at some point... idk when lul

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