lonelinessit's surprising i even remember your faceafter everything taken from mei don't even know who i am anymore am i still one with a soul?just a vessel for them to bleed out?just a robot made of gore? you're the only one who cares about meyou're the only one i want to seewill they keep me from being with you? despite my voice being like a lancei am no longer part of the devil's dancethey crave for me to return i sometimes think of my pastwhen i remembered my innocence's days of lastbut unlike you they just only want me to burnFor Ameliadear amelia "i know you haven’t talked to me in a long time. i’m so sorry for not talking to you. i just couldn’t bring myself to talk to my friends because i was so busy wallowing in my pain and the trauma i experienced from my girlfriend. i can’t forget how much she tried to make me her little patsy. she thinks she can use me and treat me like shit, and not expect me to leave her. anyways, i just want to tell you, you ok bro? i saw the art you posted on myspace two days ago, and it scared me. why did you draw someone being brutally beaten? i know you turn to very violent games to cope with the sudden murder of your best friend, and your town is filled with violence, but the beaten up girl looks like you. i love you platonically and dont want you to do anything drastic. on a lighter note, may you please meet me at my apartment? i would really want to see you in person again, and i can show you the albums i just bought a week ago. also got this new ouija board!” sincerely, nicolas parker, 11/24/2005trophy