gifZeffra's Testimony - Part 4 - God called me by name and guided me (for a little while anyway).....................................................................................................................................Part 4: God called me by name and guided me (for a little while anyway) ..................................................................................................................................... Jumping to another subject. Now... I've read the Bible, cover to cover, beginning to end 4 times. (And I'm not saying that to brag) . But that was before my late teens / early adulthood. But, about the same time I asked God back into my life, I began searching in the Bible. (Keyword »searching«... not just »reading«, but searching ) . Asking God to guide me to something he wants to show me, every day. And, for 3 weeks, every time, the Bible opened up on passages to either answer me with something on a very personal level, or point me towards Revelations (the last book in the Bible) . Revelations, Revelations, Revelations. One day, while hanging out, I even heard a voice call my name. Not a physical voice, not my own head-voice nor an imaginary voice. It was a gentle, warm and clear voice. It came from the direction where the Bible was laying. On the sofa. So, I walked over and picked up the Bible, of course. This was exciting! Then the voice said »Corinthians 1« . And, once again, it was an answer to something personal. The voice spoke again the next day. I was asking God what my purpose was. What was His plan for my life? What was He gonna use me for? While closing my eyes to listen I tapped on my heart with the »Italian hand-gesture« . What I heard I will not say. It's private. But, at the time, it comforted me. Warmed my heart and made me smile. And then... silence. 1 week of silence. Oh how the anxiety kicked in. The longing to hear that voice again. To be guided again. Wondering:»Why the sudden silence?« I picked stuff to read in the meantime, and it usually referred to the End Days. But it was still silent and un-personal (by comparison anyway) to before... until an evening in November (2023). The thumbnail for a video (»Why God is silent«) (Or something like that) had popped up a few times for a couple of days, but it was only 3 or 4 days later that I decided to watch it. »God wants to take your faith to a new level« . That's the message I got from listening. Tears were streaming down my face. There was my answer, yet again. I wanted to share this to the preacher who posted that video, almost immediately after watching it, out of thankfulness. But, as a comment, it was quite long. And it failed. I took it as a sign to not post it there as a comment, but instead turn it into an animation (or something) and then share it. Days passed. Weeks passed. More videos came across my screen. More videos where my heart felt like:»I should share something here!« . Only for my mind to stop me and make me hesitate with clicking the »post comment« button... And ultimately, delete the comment before it ever got posted. Eventually, there were two videos from someone , where the strongest messages I got from them was: »Don't be afraid to share your testimony.« and »Your testimony could be the key to someone else's salvation.« I'm not really afraid of sharing, so that second statement hit me the hardest. THAT'S why I'm sharing this. And this isn’t even ALL of it! I could have talked about The time I saw Demon Lights as a child . Or about The time God saved me from falling into a river . Or about The time God touched me and made me laugh when everyone else was crying . Or about The time I yelled at God and He ALMOST struck me O.O;;N...not proud of that one =( Or about The time God covered our car with flowers .This happened fairly recently actually. Or about How God showed me which bible to get / read .This happened very recently! Or about The time God showed me and let me understand that He is the Creator !!!This happened super recently!!! Or about how my walk with Jesus is currently going… spoilers:I think he »called me higher« too soon… the struggle is real… and... what once comforted me, now makes me doubtful and uneasy... I still choose to trust in God's plan though. »His ways are higher than our ways. His thoughts are higher than our thoughts.« But this is quite long and it's taken many writes and re-writes to get this much on paper. (Y'know - without adding TOO much detail... or leaving too much out) . It was only near the end of 2024 that I finished writing everything down into a text document on my computer. Or, everything so far . I don’t think any of our testimonies are truly finished until the day we die, because God will continue to work on us for as long as we are alive. If you want to read the other stories, follow the links. There's many other people, both men and women, who've been obedient and shared their testimonies. What they shared helped me in my walk with God. I'm grateful to God and happy for everyone He has saved. ^_^ Maybe my testimony, or at least part of it, can help someone else too. If it is His will, He will make sure that this reaches whoever it needs to reach, at the exact time they need to hear it.....................................................................................................................................trophy