**# i said i was gonna upload the headcanons for this drawing off my tumblr post on here so here you go. insane person ramblings be upon ye.
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CWS: death, selfharm, depression, suicidal ideation [stay safe]

his hair isn't too far off how i usually draw it [missing the shaved sides] because i think it'd be like a grown out buzzcut. After Jas' parent's die that's when he falls into depression and after only a few months he just buzzed it all off for easier matenance especially considering he now has to deal with Jas' kinkier hair and learn how to do that, he didn't have time for himself. After a couple months though, Marnie introduces him to Emily who starts cutting his hair every month or so, slowly making them friends.

i gave him really red and squinty eyes since while him being a stoner would be interesting i don't think he would for Jas' sake. I wanted to make him look just- so fucking tired and out of it and as if he very visably broke the fuck down 5 minutes before leaving the house and is practically snarling at anyone who gets to close incase they notice. another thing of note when it comes to his skin is the self harm scars, far from fresh but there, no longer caring enough to hide them, not from confidence but emptiness.

i didn't think too much on his clothes but in my head this is before he got a job at joja and i think that the tunnlers shirt would just cause a level of soreness since i think he and Jas' parents were presumbly gridball fans and rooting for the same team. i think it'd also draw more attention to him than he'd like. He's... okay with Jas getting attention, rumour spreads fast enough so people know not to ask and she deserves to be comfortable and cute, besides it's hard to find alternative baby rompers. If Shane wore the Tunnlers shirt then that gives people a leg up on one of his intrests and he can't risk making friends only to hurt them when he stops being around since he knows what that's like. I just gave him some vaguely punky clothes since that would at least scare off all the mother hens around town feeling sorry for him. His clothes don't fit as well anymore though, his shirt is riding up slightly exposing his tummy

as a treat for me

because since he stopped playing gridball and stopped taking care of himself he's started gaining weight.

As a final thing, he wears his friends' promise rings, they never had enough money or time to get married or even engaged for that matter before all that was left of them was their daughter, who seemed to always gravitate towards grabbing her parents' ring fingers, seeming to be intrigued by the texture difference. and while Shane knows logically thats all it was there's a part of him that wants her to have that constant, at least as a baby

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