- he/soul/they
I love my characters more than myself.
Got one of these now, I guess! Mostly just been hurting for a TH alternative for a while, so. (I've been tryna get my manually closed account reactivated, but it looks like I don't even need it anymore if this pans out!) I mostly just really need a spot to put all of Cayden's profile/lore again.
Thanks to another user on here for the heads-up. (please note you can't sign up if you're under 18, it's not a strictly mature-content site, but it is a space for adults overall)
https://lorepository.com/users/q2h51f-aldredite
Edit: I'm pretty sure writing out your character's negative personality traits isn't supposed to feel like metaphorical open heart surgery on your own sense of self, but all right. 😭😂 (or maybe it is, who knows)
I really am just putting my entire self on blast with this one, huh. (this is lighthearted, for the record)
I was recently researching demonyms (what "Canadian" is to Canada), and it occurred to me like, there are basically no places that end in '-ed'.
The reason for this is because my username across all platforms I'm on, is the demonym of my main character's hometown (Aldred).
It made me realise that there's basically no consistent rhyme or reason to these words, so that was interesting. Being a creative with characters (that you write for/have lore for) will definitely lead you down some funny Wikipedia rabbit holes, haha!!
I just tried to write a ridiculously long ramble about my own damn character, and how he makes me feel, and I just gave up, because I realised even for all the art I've done consistently for four years, all the writing, all the work, all the love, it isn't enough.
Then I just realised that no amount of art, not by my own hand nor by anyone else's, regardless of how much I cherish gifts and trades and commissions anyway, will ever be enough. No amount of writing, no amount of rambling, nothing will ever come close to doing him justice.
Justice about the creative and personal journey, about the growth he's helped me achieve, about the exercise in self love that he's become.
And then I quietly realised I'm still gonna sure as hell try, and never stop trying.
The best part of having 4 and a half years of artwork of the same character, from the day you created him to right now, is that you can really, really make it apparent how much you've improved by redrawing old pieces.
You know you're cooked when your mother visually recognises your main character, because you draw him so much.