equinnie here
so basically my obsession with annie has grown to unhealthy levels since october of 2025 and it has probably strained my relationship with her since early 2026

I fucking hate myself.
relationships - the ones who were by my side the whole time i don't appreciate enough while im too deep in attachment to annedy - one who even claimed that they were never there for me
enjoyment of things - i used to be so passionate of other stuff and now i feel like my head hurts everyday with some stuff only being a relief from that - im not sure if i can experience passion anymore
i cant even cry properly anymore it feels like its stuck in misty eye motion
at least my logical side is KINDAAA intact but really i feel like i am going insaneand that one day i will finally fool her that my attachment to her has ceased but in my head im spiraling down to insanity where every second of my mind is about annie and thats scary
im genuinely sorry for all my cherished friends - i shouldve never been in the same fandom in the first place honestly
the fact that i picked whos modt likely an avoidant attached one of all people just makes it a cool and badass recipe for disaster
being ignored for weeks(sometimes a month or two) on end sucks and thats annies fault probably but really i am just as guilty because they never signed up to have a friend who is ATTACHED to her in the first place
i am working on myself, currently trying to reframe stuff and also setting that "i dont want her to respond to be, i just want her to be happy"
to jeremy, stickbug, lexy - im sorry too