Just random thoughts on my mind, but since starting up my own neocities page in April, it's done some small wonders for my state of mind; albeit I am sad I don't actively socialize as much due to social media sapping me, the indie part of the web has been slow, and comfortable to keep up with ... and on my own site, I feel comfortable and happy to just have a corner that's ... me
It's nice to just make pages about my favourite media, or keep a log of my weeks and what's happened, or make pages for my OCs, or hoard pixels in another page, and not feel like I have to make content to make content (to be seen)
Closest I've gotten to this was the old devART era of 2012, and having my own tumblr blog with a custom theme since 2012 (obvs shuffled through themes over the years)
as title says i got way into learning mod editing/recolouring to add sylvie over as lauma cause hello?? dendro? deers? creatures are calm around her????
(ofc i had to make them stand next to zhongli, that’s sylvie’s hubby)
I still use deviantART to dig out stamps for my OCs/personal collection, but I find that every time I get on, something sad washes over me in being reminded of what a good site it was. I'm thankful my landing page is full of actual, genuine art for the most part, I've seldom spotted the stain that is AI "art" (and the ones I've seen were 'adoptables' which ... ew, what a scummy way to wring money out of people), even though anytime I accidentally hover over triple dots and see 'DreamUp' I take psychic damage
I hope some of those people will find their way here someday; there's an ache to see people fighting their way to be seen and to exist on a site that basically spits on them
Mostly something I was thinking about … I dunno if it’s just social media or if other factors have played in it (my social energy has gotten piss poor over these 5 years), but I realize over the years I’ve slowly split my persona of ‘myself’ and my ‘art self’ apart—when I used to be very active on my art accounts, people would get to see a lot of Me yapping about stuff that’s not related to my art (games, my OCs, my favourites) but it’d always been so precarious when stuff like Twitter came along and basically kinda felt like it punished you for posting about anything else but what you draw
And I’ve slowly retreated into a split of my personal accounts, and my art accounts. Which sucks because i feel like having an artist who is also very personal helps to draw people in because you’re You, but it makes it so hard to juggle being social now cause I tend to find most comfort and energy to be myself on my personal blogs that aren’t centric around my art
Anyway, this is just a disjointed journal thought dump. I hope with Sheezy Art I can talk a little bit more about personal stuff like I used to back on devART many many years ago, but it’s so hard on low social energy and often retreating to my personal tumblr to reblog and yap (or my Neocities now)
edit: glad to see it’s a hit with people haha, it’s definitely just something i’ve observed over the years
i got so excited thinking i could use style tags in my profile only to see it's subscriber only haha, but to be fair after working on my own website for so long, the HTML for profiles here doesn't seem as scary. to be fair i'm pretty happy with my profile as it is; it doesn't need any additional info (maybe just more stamps LOOL)
i hope that in due time i can come back to sheezyart in full, but my spoons feel so utterly nuked and i dont have any new art ... but to be fair im also very behind in uploading my artworks since last year of october. its not much, but they arent here
on a less fun note is i had my computer's hard drive be wiped with all of my art + projects + games which sucked ass. it gave me an excuse to restart my brick breaker project i was doing in unity. here it is, in all its beautiful block glory /s
