i think smobs is single handedly keeping this journal meme community alive

RULES:
Answer each question in as much detail as you like. Skip anything you don't know or would prefer not to answer.

How many usernames have you had? (You don't have to share them!)
god girl i dont know ... art-associated usernames, maybe, i'll loosely say 9 but that's VERY loose. i changed usernames like 400 times on deviantart/tumblr

What does your current username mean?
brutal (specifically a metalocalypse reference but it's not like mtl invented the concept of brutality lol) + bnuy

What is the first program you used to make digital art?
ms paint girllll

Where did you first start posting your art?
probably just deviantart?

What is the first piece of media you drew fanart for?
oh god i do NOT remember. whatever weird shit child ruby was doing, i probably drew pokemon fanart...

Who was your first self-insert/persona/fursona? What did they mean to you?
my first fursona was a tiny, tiny purple fox named kira ... she was one of those chaotic neutral freaks (tho this was before 'chaotic neutral' was a thing i knew, this was like, 2009ish) and i used her to rp with my friends :-3 she was just a proxy basically. nothing serious. i never had a soul for oc creation lol

Who is your current self-insert/persona/fursona? How are they different to your first?
brutalbunny is like the same in that she's more of a proxy than an oc, and also before she was orange she was the same purple color as kira LOL basically identical to kira honestly? they both were small angry little freaks. now that brutalbunny is orange she's way more relaxed and sillymoded tho. i think the difference is i'm not in public school anymore so i'm no longer [constantly overstimulated and anxious] LMFAOOO

What phases/styles has your art gone through? (e.g. Did you have an anime era, a cartoon style, a watercolour phase?)
1; kid shit, where i had tons of "how to draw manga fantasy monsters" books and then did not follow them at all. mostly drew dragons and monsters
2; i got really into drawing minecraft youtuber fanart (this was team crafted yogscast shit, not that dsmp shit THUMBS DOWN EMOJI!!!I'M AN ADULT!!!!)
3; if i knew who vivziepop was at this time it'd be vivziepop style tbh :( like, really bold angled lined, a lot of "bounce" and no regard to anatomy whatsoever, extremely toony... i clung to stabilization like a lifeline
4; Bean Mouth
5; kemono art style? japanese furry cutie art. inspired, anyway
6; soft chibi humans squishy anime humans.......
7; how i draw now, basically :-) more realistic proportioned anime inspired humans + realistic inspired furries kind of, as compared to the hyper toony/kemono style shit i was doing years ago ....
this is rly rly rough, missing a lot of nuance obviously, but i went blind looking thru my old deviantarts sorry

What/who do you think has influenced your art style the most?
ughhhhhHh i don't have any names :( well, out of the phases i listed, i think the kemono era had the strongest impact on my art? but also, i did take a lot of cues on how i draw specifically from cutie chibi shorthands tht mangaka will sometimes draw. you know? like western cartoonist shorthands except cuter LMFAO ..............
actually, to that end, i think my adhd impacts my style the most, bc i cannot bear to sit still and make detailed pieces. i get so itchy. my art is drawn quickly and hastily....it's like impressionism but in definition only (an insane thing to say)

What/who inspired you to be an artist?
it was not a conscious decision LOL i have been doodling ever since i was aware. i wasnt rly born into a visual artist family or anything ...they done fucked up n gave me a crayon and that's it

What tools are integral to your current workflow? (e.g. Programs, brushes, references.)
diyetra inker from csp you are my bestfuckign friend. or if not that, then plumillia brush. ah wuv them

What improvements have you made recently?
my art's been in a resting era ok? :-) my most recent improvement was i drew furries again which i neeeeeeed to do more often. i wuv them. the furries

What steps would you like to take in the future?
idk what but SOMETHING is wack about my rendering style and i cannot decide if i hate it or if it's super distinctive and cool. idk what to do about it. also i should get back into drawing dynamic poses, i super stagnated on that when i was focusing on learning how to draw humans enfkldngkdf.... i need to learn how to draw ppl interacting too. so that they can kiss each other