been on a nostalgia trip while i take a break from fixing cars. (it's my day job after all)

making headway for a custom partial fursuit cos I've been wanting something less nuts-and-bolts to sink my teeth in. but in between I've gotten into a funk about things I used to get up to and gaming communities rapidly dying out. like the oversaturation is getting to people.

maybe I'm reading too far into it but in a month all the GMOD servers I regularly play on that had a sizeable regular player base all got nuked at once, like a machinegun of disinterest by server owners. and it's been hitting heaps of other obscure communities I'm in. like everyone is actively retiring from their hobbies at once. I am acutely aware of why people are choosing to invest less time into their joys but it's bittersweet in a way.

for example i used to help run a super obscure short stories forum that was run off some dudes PC. when he 'retired' (closed the site cos he was going to pass away) we all hung out in IRC chat and had a laugh about silly comments and stories people made before the 'end of the world' it was a small ass group of less than 40 people and we all loved the topic material but it was a flash-in-the-pan sort of deal. I'm super glad i was there when it happened cos those peoples characters are all in my mental image of that final story ending. i often wonder how they are all travelling, now we're all adults.

I'll prob post bits and pieces of stories i spitballed when i was young and emotional but the point is that I'm bored and scribbling my thoughts down. lest they get lost to time. I'm always looking for something that scratches the particular itch.

let's make fun, enjoy things. time isn't gonna let us go back and do it again.