Recently I've been wrestling with my ego and my art abilities and honestly it's been kind of tough dealing with the fact that I'm nowhere near where I want to be. I'm at the stage again where I can see in my head the works I want to make but don't have the knowledge or skill to make it real in the way I want. What also happens is I get humbled repeatedly by actually comparing my work to other artists and realizing I got stuck in my own head again. My ego will never die so this is just something I have to deal with every so often.

So I have been trying to draw a lot recently between life obligations, it's just that not a lot of it has made it onto this account..! I have posted some to my sketch persona and bluesky but most of it just stays in my sketchbooks. I've also got multiple projects planned that I've been chipping away at, some at the same time. Not sure when any of those will be finished or in what order. Most are deltarune related because the worm in my head won't go away.

I know a lot of people are like "just make art for you and no one else and don't worry about studying or networking or social aspects of art" but I always really hated that advice lol. It doesn't work for me, I'm not the kind of person to be satisfied by that. Obviously art is just a fundamental fact of my life, the same as eating or breathing, so I would make art regardless of anyone else. But it's not enough for me to be complacent with my art. I don't understand the point of it if I'm not trying to be better. Sooo I've just been trying to put my energy towards improving and becoming more skilled lately!! I've been avoiding burnout more than I have in the last few years so I hope I can keep it up.