ive randomly started browsing some neocities sites rn and ive been thinking, i need to use less noisy social media, i keep feeling dissociated esque all the time and the constant stimulation there doesnt help.
But at the same time i cant really leave it y'know, all of my rl friends have shit like instagram and that's the only way i can contact them outside of school and yt won the video site monopoly! (kinda) (i mean the alt sites ive seen dont really sit right with me so yeah-) so i cant really see myself getting out of the cycle of being a ipad kid until i grow up, and my attention span is in shambles rn
whenever i try to use the quieter stuff i end up just moving back to doomscrolling until i remember i have this account and post, doomscroll a bit more just without the constant hate train of stuff i like always appearing in short vids. Then repeat
idk what else to add rn, but i feel like i want to hang out with people that wont make fun of me for stuttering or mentioning my hyperfix once
sorry for the vent-ish(?) post and also sorry if its kinda non sensical, i really dont plan stuff specially like this
cya