At times, I wish I could delete my anxiety. Fear is a survival instinct, being stressed about something is an internal warning sign, but my anxiety is like an enormous mass of yarn. This harsh, scratchy yarn that wraps around my chest and heart, and it always seems to crop up at the worst possible times. When I do a silly mistake, or didn't look into something enough, when my friends don't answer in a few minutes. Everything and I mean /everything/ can make my chest tight, compressing down onto me. Even stupid feelings of wanting to talk more about my character but getting no real reaction, making me feel like I should push for it, but I HATE pushing for things. I feel so mean, so rude. I hate it so so much. I want to be the happy one. The one you can come to when you need advice. I want to be able to talk more about my OCs without the need to pull them into the convo.
... I'm so. tired. from schoolwork. the writer's block. the stress. the anxiety. I just want to be normal.
sorry for the vent if anyone stumbles upon it. I just remembered there's a journal function and I don't want to be 100% alone in my thoughts.
I'd love to talk more ab my knight OC and their plot---
the suffering of having a long name—- at least you guys have more songs!
m - midnight city - m83
e - every breath you take – the police
r - reckless battery burns - ghost
c - curses- the crane wives
i - interstella 5555 - daft punk
f - fireflies - owl city
u - under pressure - queen
l - crumb- locket
b - black sorrow - park byeong hoon
u - under the bridge - red hot chili peppers
t - twin size mattress - the front bottoms
b - bohemian rhapsody - queen
r - rises the moon - liana flores
o - oh no!!! - grandson
k - killer queen - queen
e - everything i wanted – billie eilish
n - never too late – three days grace
honorable mentions -
alien blues - vundabar
paradise - coldplay
dreaming of love - lightsresolve
route around - rebelution
witches - alice phoebe lou
radio ga ga – queen
Move out of the way the gremlin has arrived /j
Haiii halllooo my name is Mercy! I go by they/them, and after a long ass time on tumblr and being betrayed with the AI integration, me and my buddies have migrated here. Not everyone i know will be here, but I will still love to talk about their lovely art on my journal posts and share some of my writing!