so erm. apologies for not posting or drawing or anything. i WAS cooking. but i had to focus on life stuff ofc.
i recent got a new job!! so far its been easy but hopefully im not like. being bad or fucking up on my job and no ones just told me yet. idk. id assume that since its my first week theyre being lenient but idk. whenever im starting something new like this, i get very bad imposter syndrome. its retail btw. no longer working fast food. coming home not covered in grease and aching all over had been the major positive so far.
ive also been attempting to try to draw more with my ipad since im barely at my computer anymore. idk how i did it while i was in school 8 hours a day and still had time to draw. at the same time tho i did draw while at school too and i cant exactly do that at work outside of breaks. and i also had summer breaks where i did nothing but draw and play video games. OH YEAH I GET BREAKS AT WORK NOW!!! 1 HOUR LUNCH BREAKS AND TWO PAID 15'S!!!! its so awesome. at my old job id work like 8-12 hours and get no break. bc their excuse was "the down time u get is ur break," but they still expected u to work bc "if its time to lean its time to clean." idk man thats why if it's in between orders u clean then. thats what id do but no one would get it. idk. and they replaced me with a manager. it rly says a lot.
but i feel like since i have this new job the goal is to recreate my habits i had while in school. try to draw. i love drawing. but i keep succumbing myself to sleepiness and feeling like i cant do anything. a habit im continuously trying to break, but im obviously still in a limbo. idk. i will figure it out eventually