I don't know when it happened, though at some point in time the internet started down a freefall and seems to have been getting worse as the years go on. I guess if I could pin a date it would be sometime around 2018 I noticed some things changing, just the overall vibe of places and things in general. So much of the community and energy shifted around then and many places online are so far removed from their initial intent, Youtube, Twitter, Deviantart, Tumblr, even stuff like Discord among other things, none of its the same and none of it is any better.

The amount of A.I being forced onto every platform is concerning and the reasoning behind it is far from benevolent; you can't avoid it no matter how hard you try and places that were in decline are now far worse then they ever could have been because of it. As creative one simply can't compete with the sheer amount of output a machine can do, even if the machine is dumb and has no idea what it's doing; it stifles motivation to keep creating though maybe that's the intent, hard to say. None of that has any value, and I can see things reaching a breaking point down the line with how frustrated people are with it.

Everything seems so divided now and every other day there's something new to be upset about, and avoiding it is almost impossible; inspiration is a lot harder to tap into as well, maybe the drives not there or I question who will see what I do anyways; can't pinpoint the reasoning. Maybe it is the feeling of belonging in a space that feels distant, I always felt like the odd one out and I never really fit anywhere; at least how I see it, I guess I don't know where I am going and I wish I knew, I want to keep optimistic and hopeful.