Low creative drive recently due to just being in a lot of pain due to period cramps and PMS being really bad. But it is what it is. I managed to write a bit today and finished a story over the weekend that's fanfiction. Not really drawing much because, again, PMS. But everything is going pretty smoothly overall in my life which is important. Always sucks when you feel force to create but I'm getting better with just doing things just to do them now and not feeling pressured into writing/drawing because I NEED TO.
I guess its just shuffling the need to create with the need for money but at the same time man i just wanna draw because drawing is fun. But you know how it is. SIGH.
'24 was a big year for me. Got engaged. Dog emergency. Started writing again.
I'm still at my current job. Sometimes I think about quitting and starting something new. But as frustrating as the job can be, I still get home after 6 hours of work and get paid full time. I can't complain. Started a new hobby of gunpla model kits. Though I slowed down a lot on building them, I still enjoy taking some time out of my day to build a kit or two. I can't complain for the cost-time amount. Got over a lot of anxiety over hospital stuff this year as well, including my hemophobia. Though it crops up time to time, its not as bad as it used to be thanks to working at a hospital. That'll do it for you.
I didn't really read many books this year. I started Dune, but never finished it. I've been reading it here and there on my commute. I have been going to the movies more often with my dad. Saw a lot of movies this year. Aliens, Transformers One, The Shining, Dune 2, amongst others that I can't think of at the moment.
Didn't draw a lot this year, but I have been pretty creative. According to AO3, my word count tally for published works is 130,339. But I have definitely written a lot more than just that which hasn't been posted as of yet. Not that I don't want to post it, but they are unfinished. I'd say that in total I wrote 150,000 words since July '24 (which is when I started to write again). Which is a lot!
'24 has been a good year. And '25 will already be amazing because I'm going to be married in a few months. I can't wait to see what the new year brings.
loook at what my spouse gave me for christmasssss dude i am soooo happy about this LOOK AT IT ITS MEEEE AS A PLUSHIE!!! LOOK!!!!!
After two nights in the hospital. my dog, betty, made a recovery. I'm so happy and was so scared she wouldn't make it. but im so glad she's alive.
My dog got into vitamin D supplements and although I've done everything right and everything was getting better all of a sudden everything got worst today. I dont know what to do. I feel like even though I did everything right it just got slapped back in my face where it didnt matter in the end. She's in the hospital right now and I can only hope she improves after two days otherwise I have no choice but to put her down. I've already put $8000 into her care. I sat with her for an hour hand feeding her medicine to make sure she'd get better. and she did get better. but now she's not improving. I'm just praying she makes it through but the doctor was blunt with me and told me that it can go either way and they don't know. but the prognosis is not looking in her favor. i just dont know what else to do because i dont have anymore money to put into her care.
i know the hardest part about thesse things is thinking you didnt do enough and/or made the decision too soon to put an animal down. but god its so difficult. ive had her for 10 years and even sitting at home without her feels so lonely. i keep expecting to see her sleeping on my couch or begging me for treats. i just dont know what to do besides pray it gets better.