- she/they
I'd like to apologize for the silence that I've been giving this community for the past while.
I'm going through a lot right now and it's even become difficult to get out of bed let alone stay awake because the depression, anxiety and basic overwhelm is so bad.
I will be back- I just have to recover.
I hope everyone is well.
My dog, Sandwich, has accumulated quite a few friends ever since we moved here.
I'd like to share a message I sent a friend this morning as a result.
"We just met the noisiest dog in the apartment.
Their name is Pepper.
They came flying through the breezeway with their owner running after them screaming their name.
They had so much energy that they ran around Sandwich in circles and my kneejerk reaction was to grab his mouth and idk why but when I did he definitely gave a warning growl at Pepper oxo I've never seen him do that.
Pepper's owner chased them around me three times before she was able to catch them lol
She apologized profusely and I just laughed and told her it was fine because all of it was very silly.
Her elderly family(???) was behind her laughing the whole time with their walker in hand, trying to get in the car.
I heard her cuss the entire walk back to the car lol"
Sandwich and I take walks religiously. If we have anymore adventures-- and we oftentimes do, I'll post about it here : )
For anyone curious Sandwich is a border collie corgi mix : )
I've found that when I'm on art sites that I feel more social.
I want to speak my mind and share with people.
Anywhere else and I'm basically not even there lol
A few years ago I discovered that I'm autistic.
I've fought and fought with myself all my life with questions like "Why can I not be like other people? I watch, I understand how it works, but I don't understand how everyone does it with such ease and no loss of anything"
I wont tell you my exact age, I never will, that feels too personal- but I'm old. I'm closer to 50 than I am to 20.
Today I discovered that I need time away all to myself every now and then even though for my entire life I've been a companion. An absolute need that has filled me to the brim.
I thought maybe this might be exhausting, constantly discovering new things about myself. Maybe I'd ask myself "Why didn't I know that before?" But it's almost invigorating to know I'm still finding things. Still learning who I am.
And that makes me wonder sometimes- do neurotypical people have this?
Do they ever feel like they were just suddenly dumped out of the womb in the middle of their life and are surprised to be constantly discovering things about themselves or do they just already know? Does it happen decades apart?
Anyways welcome to my little brain dump. My shower thoughts presented right here without a shower lol
I'm so happy to have sheezy as a home again.
I already feel so comfortable and safe.
Thank you so much for returning. Sheezy and all of it's artists, it's community.
This is silly but I like doing this for friends when they tell me their dreams.
Sometimes it's helpful- sometimes it's just silly but it's a fun something to do.
So drop your dream here and I'll see what I can do :3
Important notes: Sometimes in dreams you'll remember something that caught your attention for some reason. Be it a colour or an item, a feeling, etc. That's actually pretty important when it comes to dream assessments o0o Keep that in mind when telling me your dream \o/
x.x I'm surprised and sad that Sheezy is going down
I really wanted this to be the next big art site. I'm sad it didn't work out.
I've gone through and rewatched the people that I watch here on multiple platforms if I could find links for them.
Here are mine just in case you're looking
Carrd - https://sleepysproutart.carrd.co/#
Twitter (Art) - https://twitter.com/sleepysproutart
Twitter (Personal) - https://twitter.com/sleepysproutrt
Toyhouse - https://toyhou.se/sleepysprout
Instagram (Art) - https://www.instagram.com/sleepysproutart/
Instagram (Personal) - https://www.instagram.com/sleepysproutirl/
Buzzly - https://buzzly.art/~sleepysprout
FurAffinity (I forget about this all the time!) - http://www.furaffinity.net/user/sleepysprout/
My most active sites are Twitter (Personal), Toyhouse, Instagram (Personal) and Buzzly
The rest is listed on my carrd
I don't have a dA anymore, I've completely abandoned it and will never return. I've left it up just in case old friends come looking for me and want to know where I've gone.
I was absent here due to a lot of awful things going on in my life- I'm still for the most part recovering but I should be active again fairly soon : )