This is something i wrote for me, originally in spanish, translated to english.

Spanish:

Desearía poder cambiar,
poder transformarme y no dar vuelta atrás,
ser quien en verdad se quien soy,
me pregunto, acerca de porque no lo hago,
porque me contengo,
porque me miento,
porque me oculto.

Miedo?
Pena?

Lo mas seguro es que sea inconsecuente,
incluso si se exactamente porque, dudo mucho que eso me lleve a cambiar,
al menos eso creo, o quiero creer.

Aveces me gustaría que alguien me forzase,
que alguien llegue y me fuerce a enfrentar la realidad, quiera o no,
Se que eso jamas va a pasar,
nadie me salvara, eso lo se, lo he sabido desde hace tiempo ya.

English:

Wish i could change,
to transform myself and never look back,
to truly be who i know i am,
i ponder about why, why i haven’t leaped, transformed,
why i repress,
why i lie,
why i hide,

fear?
Shame?

However it may be, surely its inconsequential,
even if i know exactly why, i doubt that would lead to the change i so desire,
at least that’s what i believe, or want to believe.

Sometimes i dream of someone forcing me,
dream of someone forcing me to face the truth that i fear, whether i want it r not,
I know that will never happen,
no one will save me, that I’ve known, I’ve known it for quite some time now.