Ever since I got back from my trip to the California Institute of the Arts for a summer college program, I couldn't get off the schedule of art they put me on. For the 6 weeks I was there, It was a dream, it was non-stop drawing. 6–8 hours dedicated to drawing figures, design, and storyboard work. I loved every minute of it. I didn't care that I wasn't eating, I didn't care that it was egg frying hot in my dorm, I didn't care at all, as long as I was drawing, I couldn't complain. Something happened when I came back home, I got itchy whenever I wasn't drawing, I got scared of when I had to do chores, I couldn't stop myself from drawing at my job. Whenever I wasn't drawing, I didn't feel right.
My psychiatrist upped my medicine prescriptions after that. Nothing really changed about my feelings, it just made it more manageable when I can't make drawings.
One of my professors in community college once said to me that I'm a rarity because I'm not results driven, I'm someone with a love for the journey. It felt good to be told that. I'll always remember that. I heard those words repeated to me when I went to Calarts.
Like the sweet sounds of the church bells, they don't ring alone, but only once for you.
It didn't feel right.
I didn't really do anything of note while I was there, all I did was just exist, draw, and love it.

I got on a better routine recently this new year. 2-3 times out of the day is dedicated to just drawing, about 2 hours each, once in the morning, once in the afternoon (afterwork), and once in the evening if I'm feeling it. That's only for weekdays, weekends are my anything goes kind of days.
I was told recently in a discord chat that my routine isn't sustainable for anyone outside the art industry. I don't know their life, that may be true for someone who works a different job than me, but I can tell you that the job I work is not in the art industry... I'm not a professional in the arts... nor do I want to be... I just have a drawing addiction.

One thing I thought that I wouldn't be able to do was not use the eraser.
I haven't touched it since July of last year.
The itch to draw comes back sometimes. I obey when I can.
Not the worst problem to have.