I'm going to try not to overexert myself and make this short and sweet, as I have not... been doing so great for a lot of reasons that I would rather not trouble anyone with.

I will however admit that one of these reasons is lacking motivation and stamina to do the things I want, and I have been trying to find means of building my strength back up in a lot of facets of my life, including health, writing, and drawing.

Things like eating better, walking more, just simply trying to thrive instead of get caught in a dismal fog and waste away for the sake of wasting away. I'm stubborn as hell and don't want to be caught in that any more than I may or may not have been already. I'm not about that shit.

This includes exercising my hands and drawing more as well, as drawing is ultimately something that grounds me when I'm really not okay.. and I think I have been stagnating more just from slipping out of and neglecting that, if that makes sense. I don't know how or why it fell out as much as it has either, but that alone scares me and I will be trying harder to change that!

One of the things I have noticed, especially for posting what I've drawn, is that description work holds me back. I am extremely meticulous about it because while I strive not to be a perfectionist with it per se, I always desire to present concepts of mine with focus and accuracy if I can help it.. and even if the only standards I hold it to are my own and no one else's, it has become somewhat of a drawback. Especially with the skills related to writing having dropped outta practice the way that it has.

In otherwords, I may formulate a workaround where I post desc-less, and come around later to them, which might help motivate me more. Just in hopes of being able to get it on the table sooner rather than later and to serve as a drive to tackle descs in the moments that they come to me more naturally! Jussst.. especially if anyone is curious about the thought behind my work, please do be patient!

Oooh,, this is not short and sweet anymore actually. It's wonderful what drinking water can do for you when your body is (seemingly) falling apart and tricking you.... please drink water!! If you see this I am begging and crying for you, whoever you are, to drink water now!!!

Water Drinking, Nutrition, Walks, Drawing and Writing, I'm gonna get back on track dammit! The only thing left is knowing how to pace myself bc goodness knows I wanna get right back to it! I want to function, I wanna thrive arrghargahrghhjkgljkldkl,,,