Sometimes I think I'm selfish for always being at my best only when I draw purely for myself, and then I remember that's just okay.

I draw for myself, I always have, and I have the most fun that way. If my heart's not in it, you can forget about it, and that's like everything I do in life too.

I think that's why I struggle with commissions, which is definitely a folly of mine. I've fallen into this trap with ArtFight this year too; I wasn't totally art-blocked or burnt out, I just haven't done enough for myself lately, and it was affecting my work a lot. Like, I know I have no future in an artistic career because of how I just am, I am incapable of my best work if it's for an external motive.

Now that I'm drawing my favourite character again, I suddenly feel extremely inspired.

Oh well.