never thought the only journal id write this month is an emo journal but o well...

Lately i feel like im not drawing, or making anything.... good really. i desperately want to improve, i crave perfection.

I desperately want to improve, i want to excel and go far, like never gone before, and yet, im still bound to my desk chair, often than not sitting there doing nothing. im learning to improve my drawing skills, but i want to be as good as my school peers, if not better.

I want to learn to animate better, so i can have a better chance to work amongst my colleagues, and hopefully make and expand upon creative partneships with them. i want to be better, i NEED to be better, and yet im still subconciously confining myself to creating things that are subpar, or less what id hoped them to be.

i know you cannot force progress, i just wish i could be as good as everybody is now, rather than later. and it sucks that i cant speed up the learning process.