so my last real art was posted in september. oops. Last fall/winter sucked major bad and I developed art block but I also got into Deadlock around september/october which is either the best or worst possible thing for me to gain interest in. I was going to wait until it went into 1.0 to try it, but the Valve sauce was too potent and one day I blacked out only to wake up to see 50 hours played. This is the only game I've played where 50 hours is firmly in noob territory. I've got 360 hours now and I am still in low ranks. I feel like I'm drafting a dissertation every time I make an item build in this game. And it feels good as fuck, I'm getting an A. Usually people get all self deprecating about the fact they find a new moba fun, but I'm not doing that, turns out mobas are actually tight as fuck when made by a good dev studio, and everything I learned about League of Legends just tricked me into thinking they were bad this whole time.

So this game does have the power to finally make my art block wane, it's just slow getting back in the saddle and shit. I have to relearn CSP because my switch to linux meant I couldn't get it working for a long time. I still don't feel great about my art on the whole but I want to branch out into new mediums this year. I want to learn to animate, 2D and 3D. I also want to make frag videos because the Deadlock fanbase ecosystem is still nascent and approximately the size of a fishbowl and that means I have literally no choice but to make the things I want to see. Not sure if sheezy allows frag videos on here. If they do I might post or I might not.

I haven't been keeping up with sheezy and I'm definitely sad that development has slowed down so much, I've been hoping to at least get gallery folders for a while now. The site is still usable and it'll happen eventually but going through my feeds it just seems like there's less activity here from the people I follow sadly. There's also the fact that I don't think I share many interests with most of the site's population. I am still on bluesky and tumblr, but my sheezy profiles are more reliable in terms of keeping my art in one organized place. bluesky is unfortunately sort of doodoo for posting art because they refuse to meaningfully stray from twitter's fundamental design flaws, but still way better than twitter itself.