i don't actually fully know if the word means what i think it means but it's ok

My artfight plans were tempered by a sudden hospital admission. its nothing serious but it is a little daunting, I'm only bummed because it's a lot. a lot of waiting for tests to be ready or for the results to be ready. my biggest fear is they will find absolutely nothing, will think I'm crazy, and I'll be just as confused as i was before. but at least it's all free.

there's worse things on the horizon that i don't want to share here yet, maybe if you follow me on tungler you've already guessed. but idk. i hope it turns out ok. I'm really tired of things falling apart