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Hi! As soon as I made this profile I realize I made the mistake of making my username the purpose of this account because now people would have trouble referring to me without my name upfront. Oops. For now till 4 weeks, simply refer to me as the character in my profile picture, Shijima! I'm 19 years old, and as for my gender, I don't have a clear view for myself, so refer to me as whatever for now.
I've made this account with the goal of simply writing about my life in here, and to write little bits of literature here and there. Drawing isn't my best suite at the moment but I do love writing! ^w^
I like the works of Tsukumizu (Girls' Last Tour and Shimeji Simulation), Yume Nikki and the equally dreamy fangame Yume 2kki, Pokemon, Roblox, and most importantly, reading literature! Especially classic works such as the Sherlock Holmes canon and H.P Lovecraft, etc.
My online activity is sporadic and few so I'm not active a lot of the time, but I'd don't mind a conversation .w.
"Okay, I've feel like I've done nothing inasmuch as use up the majority of this day scrolling. Must do something!"
goes back to scrolling
brain shuts off
"...damn it, I should do something!"
Alas, the cycle repeats. I would blame myself, butttt I think that is unproductive and just bad. I'd say, fuck the social media design.
I've gone on a really bad doomscrolling spree 2 days ago, spent on a WHOOPING 8 HOURS of screentime! That is so much hours on a day that I can't take back, holy shit.
Honestly, I don't know if it is actual neurodivergent dysfunction that I am experiencing right now (I've been meaning to get an actual diagnosis if this is true but responses from the psychologists are taking very long...), but perpetuating myself to this harmful inertia time and time again, I know there will be regrets later on purely on how I can't take time back.
My brains feels like it is always everting itself, pulled part by thought to thought to thought that I don't know what to do with the options of going through time. There are books and mangas to be read, Visual Studio to practice coding, movies and anime I want to watch, the instruments in my home waiting to be practiced on, friends for when I want to chat to, the damn story I've been sitting on for weeks... Not to mention having to fit in school work and chores to the roster of things-I-could-do-now.
There is always much to do, that just gets thrown away for TikTok, Facebook, and such.
This is why I wrote about being a snail!