Here I am, here we will see where it will all go down (if it does).

I haven't joined a new art website in a while, but my life has been so boring for a long time, and I hoped this might do something. There is a good chance that this might end up just being yet another place for me to upload a piece of art and then run. I don't interact much outside my FurAffinity watch feed, and even less so on Twitter, and am almost nonexistent anywhere else.

I'm not sure how to explain my deal. Surely it can't be that I think I'm too good to interact with others due to some sort of elitist fashion (I feel like I come off this way sometimes, but it is not the case), nor is it shyness (though, I do undeniably feel it sometimes), but I feel like all this low energy that I have keeps me from creating new bonds with others. And that goes pretty generally, whether that is following new artists or talking to new people with the intent of friendship. Or even talking to, close-ish... acquaintances. It doesn't happen.

It's disinterest. But saying "I'm disinterested in you as an artist/person/friend" sounds pretty bad. It accidentally sounds personalized. I just don't have a lot to say. What's interesting is that I find more joy talking to strangers in person (at the store, for example) than anyone else. There's always a lot to say. You can say whatever nice things you want, and in case you fail to do something or otherwise have an awkward moment, you will never see that person again. No pressure to stay true to anything you may have said in the past. But still a full-fledged interaction, and interactions of any kind are what I think everyone needs, no matter how introverted one may be.

Now you could be thinking, "How can you claim to be sooo disinterested when you're talking about it so much?" Well, here's the thing. I can see the importance in having connections. Having a network of artist friends can land you work, and having friends can bring you favors and create good memories, among many other reasons. I'm interested in the mutual good that can come of all of that. However, I'm lacking the genuine desire to go out or talk to people, it doesn't come to me naturally (anymore?). And it's not an aversion either, I think people are great, it's just... I'm doing other things. I like doing other things. Responding to comments at my own pace works. Messaging 2 people on occasion works.

But we'll see, we'll see...

I think I've just found what I want to do with this site. Aside from posting artwork. See, I used to post journals a lot on DeviantArt until it became uncomfortable to look at, but SheezyArt has that feeling of comfort that I feel I can share my thoughts on again. IDK what to do with my profile page though. Customization has never been my forte in any degree. I enjoyed the hell out of playing The Sims, but my enjoyment from that wasn't from creating beautiful dream homes, it was to bring hell upon the characters to see how fast they would kick the bucket.

Not sure what that says about me, but you have nothing to worry about. Except for a bland profile of mine. I can't do much about that.