It's been awhile since I last posted a journal here... and part of that absence was Artfight 2024 burning me out ngl LOL

As such, I decided to slow things down this year and not really do any commissions unless a friend approached me and even then might keep it on the down low. I want this year to be self-indulgent! To work on more personal projects and all the ideas I couldn't do last year! And maybe I won't do Artfight this year? I say that but I always get hyped regardless... but maybe I'll take it slower or not so much effort put into them as normal. Still quality, but not spending hours at a time buuuut we'll see how that feelings are as the time approaches.

On the health side of things, I've come to terms that there's not much more I can do and that I won't pursue any more lengthy doctor visits or experiments. I'm just at that point where I've tried everything and no one knows what to do other than pointing me back to previous avenues. Which I no longer have the time, nor energy, nor financials for at this point. I may have to be mildly in pain and fatigue at all times but I'm not in the horrendous state that I was a year ago at least. I found 1 thing that worked majorly and I'm happy with it. Nothing is perfect and I can't return to my old normal, but it is what it is.

Kinda the reason I want to spoil myself with what makes me happy this year. Get back into creative avenues that inspires me, get through my gaming backlog, maybe even roleplay again! Try out the new flute I got for christmas! I'm so behind in being kind to myself and need to work on my mental state better. So despite all the other bad things going on in the world, I can at least take care of myself first and foremost this year.