Finished: 23.3.2022

Look at me, full digital painting with no lineart!

I had been struggling with mental health extra hard when I made this. It's like wherever I went and no matter what was happening around me, I was always a glance into the wrong direction away from sinking in deep again. Supposedly nice things felt like nothing, and supposedly neutral things dragged me down for no reason. I had been fighting it long enough to know when things were bad due to circumstance and that it was going to pass, but it was nevertheless excruciating to keep hitting that emotional bear trap wherever I turned. There's only so much one person can take.

It's not all bad though; I was finally diagnosed with PTSD after all these years and learned that my lack of energy can likely be attributed to the fact that for up to one 10th of the time I spend asleep I'm simply not breathing. (severe sleep apnea babyy) Started treatment for both.

On a completely separate topic, Quany's design kinda exists in two different worlds at once. On one hand she's one of the phoenixes in my headworld and a relatively meaningless side character in the story, and on the other I use her looks as an alter ego of sorts and she acts as a sona whenever I need one. These two appearances are completely separate but it may not be obvious from my drawings of her which is being depicted in each one.

EDIT: Big thanks to @Omi for the spotlight! Wonderful to see one of my proudest work featured T w T