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tʀevoʀ / 29 / audhd bi polyam gnc trans male
i've had a lot going on with my mental health lately and have been trying my best to just move through it whenever it happens. had a major emotional meltdown like, last week? and it was really difficult on top of getting over a bout of sickness. i'd been sick for nearly a week or more at that point and it didn't help at all.
i'm feeling better this week and have had a good week, social outings and things have gone well and i have felt more content and less anxious constantly. it might just be a short break before it comes back, and it does.
but i'm grateful to be feeling more stable and all i need to do is just get my sleep schedule back on track. it's completely backwards from what i would prefer right now, but also i have not chastised myself for the rest. i have felt so, so tired. rest isn't lazy at all.
i have made lots of physical art and less digital art and i have been painting. i'd love to share it here.
despite how inactive i've been here wrt sharing my art, i have been making lots of art and i'm excited to share more of it here.
i've got so many new supplies to work with and make stuff with and i'm really, really excited! there's a local art supply store that's full of secondhand, wildly affordable materials that you can handpick yourself and they've got SO much stuff. paper, sketchbooks, magazines, postcards, ceramic tiles, jewelry, charms, yarn, plastic jars, card stock, knitting needles, paints, photo frames... there's so much stuff and when i visited last they had valentine's day stuff everywhere!
i ofc had to find a bunch of cute things to use for art. i'm very excited.
i've also been socializing a lot more lately which has been good for me. z and i have been getting out and doing things and enjoying ourselves and spending time with new people and it's been a lot of fun.
i'm glad to have nice things to share.
it's refreshing.
i thought i'd posted a journal entry in december but i guess not—it was a complicated month but it actually had some really tender moments.
2024 is over and there is so much i could say, but for now i'll instead say that i'm proud of myself for persevering and continuing to make art and find new ways to express myself through it. i've even gotten better at painting, as i've been doing a lot of that lately. i've been painting in my mixed-media sketchbook a lot and some of it has turned out really interesting, i can see myself getting better and actually i can feel skills and habits i've picked up through painting more regularly translating into how i make other art as well—drawing, digital illustration, lettering, etc.
i need to also update my website, this moth marks a full year since i started it! can't believe i had to give up my previous url/domain but i'll register a new one this year i think. should be able to get flailuser at a reasonable rate.
i'll be posting more art as i've noticed myself improving and i've actually been creating original designs and characters and lately and it's been very exciting.
i'll write more soon.
happy new year 💌
going into and out of election season was really difficult for me and ultimately i had to just take time to literally decompress and recover from verbal abuse i endured and i was treated horribly right after, the day after the election.
it was horrible and it should not have happened. i don't deserve that.
but i'm still making art because i love it and i know it's important. i know i have to keep going and keep making art. and actually, i can't remember if i shared this here or not yet but i'm getting prints made for art vending locally! i'll have some prints available (some bookmarks and small prints at first) and this is literally the first time i've ever had my art printed! i'm so excited and i can't wait to see how it'll all turn out. i found some small pieces to display my art with and i think it will look very nice. 🖤
i'm trying my absolute best to keep going and when i make space between myself and what isn't good for me and causes me unnecessary stress, i'm better off of course.
i'm going to be working more on my website asap, as well as working on more art. and i'll also fix my pin board here on sheezy asap, too, it's totally disorganized and got rearranged after i saved some profile changes a few months ago. i'll fix it.
i have been making so much art lately and after losing so much of my digital art in procreate, i've still stayed motivated to make art and have made more digital art, as well as lots and lots of physical and traditional art. drawing with pencils, markers, sharpies, ink. i've been painting a lot too! and i even created my first ever linocut print!! it turned out decently! i've never tried carving a stylized portrait in rubber but it was exciting and new, and something i loved working on. i enjoy using the carving tools and i feel like i very, very quickly caught on to how to use it and really create something i like and translate my idea/art styles through the medium.
i like how my print(s) of trent turned out and it feels really cool knowing i can reuse the design i carved myself. i need to get more materials so i can make more prints!