I knew I wasn’t going to have the time to intensely get back into Sheezy, so I didn’t request to be among the first to try out the site earlier. But today, they’ve rolled out access for all former users, so here I am, once again, just dropping in to make a post.

So, what has changed since the last time I wrote words?

Looking over that journal again, I would say the ideas are more or less the same, with some additions. I still have the lack of desire to interact much due to being busy doing other things, but it’s also the fact that the internet just kind of sucks to be on in general. I mentioned this in a different blog post on my website, but scams and spam and mean people and all that stuff, it’s just really depressing. I’ve found a lot of peace by keeping my internet usage to a minimum, and by doing so, working on my personal projects becomes more frequent since I’m not spending all day scrolling through social media and feeling terrible afterwards for accomplishing nothing.

I didn’t think I got to imply in the Sheezy journal that the disinterest was not just online, but also in-person. I enjoy stranger interactions, but there was also a lack of desire for friendships wherever I found myself physically too (namely school). But that’s something that has changed a bit in the past few months.

I’m still finding myself in school thanks to financial aid, but I was meandering quite a bit until I joined a theatre class on a whim in the Fall, where I helped build the stage sets for the productions. And man, have I found an intense love for stagecraft. And that’s actually what I’m doing for a job right now. A short term one, but a job nonetheless (and for those who don’t know, basically I’ve never been employed before).

So taking it back on the “uninterested in building friendships” thing, I must admit: It’s really hard not to get attached to people you’re constantly collaborating with, so that has opened me up somewhat. Some of the actors interact with us and help with some tasks too, which I find really neat. I’ve never really gotten deep into theatre before and never thought too much about it (not out of dislike, but I simply hardly ever crossed paths with that scene), but I’m very intruiged now.

And other than an unrelated note saying that I’m finally working on a new animated video for myself, that’s kind of all I wish to say tonight. I didn’t really have a plan for this journal, I just started writing out whatever came to mind, and I’m in too deep to delete it now. I wonder who will read this?

Long story short,
I’m still here, still making art (though a bit slower), not too keen on being online as much anymore, and suddenly found myself doing carpentry. Here’s to a good 2024, and long live Sheezy.