calendar_monthDecember 2025calendar_monthSeptember 2025calendar_monthAugust 2025calendar_monthJune 2025calendar_monthMay 2025calendar_monthMarch 2025calendar_monthFebruary 2025calendar_monthJanuary 2025calendar_monthDecember 2024calendar_monthNovember 2024calendar_monthOctober 2024calendar_monthSeptember 2024calendar_monthAugust 2024calendar_monthJuly 2024calendar_monthJune 2024calendar_monthMay 2024calendar_monthMarch 2024
things have been happening lately
- been learning to drive lately—have had my license for a year but am only now regularly getting behind the wheel :p i am still hopeless in long stretches and highway but i can definitely drive myself to the grocery store or a cafe which is a nice feeling
- have been ATTEMPTING to regulate my phone screen time. my main vice is tumblr—i got rid of instagram on my phone for a similar reason and it’s worked wonders, but now i’m just spending more energy on tumblr. yesterday i was mostly stuck in bed and ended up going around 7 hours on there which is unideal. found a screen time app that i heard good things about, so i’m going to see how this pans out
- one of the things i outlined for myself to do is to cut through my backlog of games. ironically that’s just a different screen, but it’s a bit more enriching than doom scrolling, i’d say
- also need to draw traditionally more! i’ve been getting way WAY too perfectionist with my sketchbooks and need to get more silly with them. i used to be so good at filling them but now i have one that’s been mostly empty for a few months… feels awful
- the zine i applied to FINALLY closed its applications and are now sending emails. i applied pretty late in the app window so i will probably not hear from them for at least another day 🥲 this anticipation is killing me alive
that’s all. all in all i have been feeling too feeble to do anything but be on the damn phone but come july i hope i can change this…
(art fight is approaching at a very sluggish rate)
sorry for inactivity i got hit with a crazy wave of lethargy and i haven't been able to engage with my hobbies :,) unfortunate, but hopefully this latest breakthrough may get me going for the next few days
i've always wanted to participate in some kind of collab or zine based on my interests. i participated in a pretty small project voltage collab a few months ago which was great, but i guess i've been hungering for more. these opportunities often allude me since i feel like they are all hosted on twitter which i refuse to be on lol... not that that is an excuse for my lack of searching but i guess i'm just bad at actively looking for these types of things.
i may have been spoiled from my jojo days from 2020-2021 where i felt like i couldn't trip without finding an open zine application in the fandom on instagram. i got rejected from all of them (which made sense since my art was prettyy rough in that era comparatively speaking), but i like to think i've grown a bit since then..?? maybe??? 😭
well, on tumblr i finally found an art collab project centered on vocaloid that was accepting applications!! it's gala synth, which is a vocaloid collab centered around fashion! YES!!! so obviously i immediately slammed in my application and am anxiously anticipating results which should be coming soon...! finally, me using sheezy as my informal portfolio site is going to pay off ^w^
i won't get myself too worked up about this since rejection is very possible (i am likely far from my full potential in terms of art) but still, the fact that i have finally found myself a large project i can be a part of really excites me! hoping for the best, and if not, hoping for more opportunities 🤞🏻
had a dream last night that art fight already started and ended after a day and i found this out because people on sheezy were like “yayy team rock won!!” as if team rock is an actual team 😭
hhh hopefully this is some kind of message to scare me into preparing my attacks
in other news, i’ll be taking a day trip over the weekend that involves an 8 hour train ride ^^” it sounds daunting but i think it’ll be a nice place to catch up on the lineart of a wip i have cooking atm.
gonna have to prep some videos to fill the air the whole ride. youtube downloader save me……
I know I keep posting about artfight but i swear thisll be my final journal post here (though character refs might get uploaded to the persona as i get around to them).
i still need to make so many more refs to beef up my roster ;w;
but im still excited!! ^^
i’ll be on team stardust for this year’s art fight! i’m actually so stoked by the theme because i was hoping for some kind of ocean/space duality because those are some of my favorite themes to explore artistically <3 i’ll be on the space team because i love purple!! (as my profile makes clear)
if i’m already following you (either through finding you on the sheezy discord or from other posts about artfight here) i probably have your ocs bookmarked and im likely going to attack regardless of your team lol!! i’m pretty sure that’s chill :)
i’m really excited but i still have much work to do….
(ps, my AF is linked on my sheezy page. please check it out! i want to attempt drawing ocs from folks who follow me if im able to….)