we're in the middle of our first heatwave this year and my brain has turned into a mush, so i sat back, relaxed and threw some shapes together in blender, not having a particular idea in mind and just testing some things (how to make spiral staircases, how to make bushes, etc, trying to get a hang of my semi-toon shader too), and i ended up with this thing
it's pretty cool, my overachieving mind is a bit displeased that we can't turn it into a full illustration as it was created without an idea in mind so i can't (or don't want to)... like... retrofit an idea onto it lol. it's just a cool floaty island and it taught me a lot and kept me company while i was slowly melting away in my chair so as far as i'm concerned it served its purpose fully and i can move on from it now
i know it's a fleeting feeling and i'll feel better soon, but i'm once again feeling like a fake artist with boring ideas and nothing worthy to show. when i feel good my attempts to mix 3d and 2d feel like i've found my medium, right now it feels like i use 3d as a crutch because i can't learn to draw background by hand like a real artist. i can't draw painterly, i can't do lineless art and for some reason it makes me feel like a failure too
hit an artblock as well and my experience is telling me that i'll be seeing an improvement in my skill soon because that's how it usually works, my eyes improve before my hands and i can't draw anything "nice" and it frustrates me, but my anxious mind tells me that i ran out of "ink", i drew everything i could and i won't make anything good ever again
eh i'm down with sickness and it lowered my entire mood so realistically i just need to eat something nice and rest, instead i'm here ruminating on my art like a fool
i've been working on an updated ref for one of my characters and it took me much longer than usual, both because i was drawing a dragon for the first time and because i was unwell and could only draw in short periods of like 10-15 minutes once every couple hours. usually i'd be riddled with anxiety that I Need To Post Art and i'd push myself to finish it faster (and it'd probably look like shit as a result), instead i knew that i'm on a break, i'm not rushed to post anything anywhere and i took my time, it took me several days actually. and oh my god did it pay off, i'm so hella pleased with how this turned out
look at her!
new day, new journal because i wanna talk to ppl but don't wanna upload through gallery lmfao ANYWAY
in today's episode of "nubi is chipping away at their worldbuilding endeavour" i introduce you: The Shoes. i'm so excited about these i'm so excited about the idea that i have some defining feature about the clothes in my world as opposed to "idk any fantasyish clothes would work i guess", i feel like a real worldbuilding pro right now lol
and now you can see that Arye's soft shoe is blue which means he's a local fashionista
in the future i wanna try and figure out somewhat defined style for the clothes too but today i'll sit back and enjoy my shoes
not me saying that i need a break from posting stuff online and then making something i desperately want to post lol. i want to model a little village for one of my worlds, just started building houses to figure out the style i wanna go for, materials and stuff, and this one turned out so delightful!!! i am especially proud of the mossy roof tile
not gonna lie, modelling a whole village might be too big for me to bite, i am intimidated by my own ambition, but also very, very inspired! still thinking what would be a better approach, to model houses and build the terrain around them or to build the terrain, spread some cubes around as placeholders for houses and then build those. eh, that's for future me to decide