i know it's a fleeting feeling and i'll feel better soon, but i'm once again feeling like a fake artist with boring ideas and nothing worthy to show. when i feel good my attempts to mix 3d and 2d feel like i've found my medium, right now it feels like i use 3d as a crutch because i can't learn to draw background by hand like a real artist. i can't draw painterly, i can't do lineless art and for some reason it makes me feel like a failure too
hit an artblock as well and my experience is telling me that i'll be seeing an improvement in my skill soon because that's how it usually works, my eyes improve before my hands and i can't draw anything "nice" and it frustrates me, but my anxious mind tells me that i ran out of "ink", i drew everything i could and i won't make anything good ever again

eh i'm down with sickness and it lowered my entire mood so realistically i just need to eat something nice and rest, instead i'm here ruminating on my art like a fool