[Originally posted to DA]

A lot of the art I’ve made so far towards the end of the year has always been half done, simple sketches with little to just bare minimum color tbh.
I mean in my defense, I don’t often have time to draw at a reasonable hour or even if I do, I can’t focus because of -stay with me- sensing the need to be called out to do housework, apathy, or various other reasons— which leads to me staying up past midnight just to give myself the chance to do what I wanna do. 😭

The only times I got my ass saved on certain personal deadlines was cause not only did I preoccupy myself with some degree of story-building, but that I also worked with aj-h back then, and they were fast and have skill, but their style just didn’t completely satisfy my parameters at times, things would be misinterpreted, or even worse, “abridged”.

And just before I wrote down this ramble I mentally asked myself if this really was the best I could do on my own? Always half assed despite having time and yet also not having time, being fast because I was “lazy” or constantly needing to cut corners or my ideas short and just dropping stuff altogether if the motivation and interest finally waned.

It’s even more of a nuisance when you’re told that being busy drawing = not actively doing anything, which still pisses me off to this day.

Eugh, just had to get a little of that outta me.