27 may 2026
i keep recounting my life as a story told through songs and yeah...
would say i dont expect this, windex agreed to join in the project proelium server despite me being there and that's. history. its weird how subspace just asked them to join one day and she agreed to it. i dont really bother to censor names anymore - no ones an antagonist, no ones a villain. just characters. with weird dynamics and conflicts that drive the story weirdly.
its quite weird how i thought it will always be the last time. and then i get to see her again. somehow. thanks to whatever made this pissible, really. maybe especially you, sub!!!
the group where i dwell in most of the time recently actually changed the moment she arrived. it became more.. . lighthearted. i feel dizzy with endorphins.. and honestly it feels like a new start. the ending of our story by stomach book unfolding in front of us two, perhaps. maybe even the ending of under wraps by hers. we've really not been looking back... and what i thought was perfect, and what i thought was fact - it uncovered a beauty that i never could expect. i don't feel alone when i look at her anymore. its a weird feeling of cognitive dissonance since my brain is telling me that its surprised that i got to befriend someone like her in the first place. its weird how i remember how the story goes but can still be baffled as to i got here.
the story isnt ending anytime soon...
We had history, and the most important thing is that we have a present. I'll Try to appreciate every moment while it lasts, I guess.

not sure if i should keep this private but i like wearing my heart on my sleeve anyways so LMAO
wow i need to show up tomorrow and this is what im writing before this slinger hits the hay. fun.

hoping the OTHERS dont find this TnT