I;'ve been so burnt out already, but turns out I might have covid again due to my parents
I haven't felt this horrible since the first and only time we got covid so if it's not covid i am suffering but i couildn't get tested today cause we had like 8 inches of snow and i'm dizzy
hopefully it'll be clearer tomorrow so I can go get tested
RIP arts and crafts i want to do.... hopefully soon and hopefully il'l feel better soon
I absolutely love art I want to do it all the time. I have sooo many ideas for video games, so many drawings I want to make, so many creative pursuits I want to well.. pursue!
but I'm constantly struggling for money, I'm constantly stressed out, my body hurts so much. I don't have the energy to learn tons of new skills, I don't have the energy to make things just for myself because I have to spend all of my energy to suffer less and make sure I'm not going to like starve to death or something!! so it's AUUGGHH
cause I REALLY really want to make my games!! I want to make my websites, I want to do and make and look at and grow and create so so so so so SO MANY things it makes my heart and body ache.
I love art
so much
I want to keep making things for the rest of my life.