Neither me nor any of the doctors know how.. but this past friday I fractured my rib!!
I'm going insane because I'm unable to draw, and it's literally the worst pain I've ever felt in my life.
[the most likely culprit is literally just from putting lotion on my back.... talk about embarrassing]
I ended up not going to the ER until monday because I've been in insurance limbo and couldn't afford an ER trip so I suffered through two days of wanting to throw up from pain before finally going 😭🥲
and then I had to go to the orthopedic urgent care/walk in clinic yesterday cause I suddenly couldn't breathe well, only to find out the fracture is a lot worse than the ER doctor lead me to believe [they even showed me the images this time.. they never do at the ER] and the ortho is SUPER concerned so I gotta get a ton of bloodwork! but my grandma flaked on bringing me today... and my SSDI court hearing is tomorrow soa aaugrsdegdgdfh
I was playing a lot of blue prince after I was FINALLY able to get into a semi-comfortable [ie; not excruciating] amount of pain at my desk with a weird pillow setup.. but now I'm hurting a lot again so I need to go bed-mode for awhile. [Which I can't even lay down!!! I have to be super propped up,, oh how I miss laying on my side and stomach]
anyway if I'm like missing for a month or so! that's why
this fracture has extremely messed up my life rn, and I'm unable to do anything at all I normally was doing to scrounge together super small amounts of cash.. so I'm back to begging on the internet so I don't end up in the ER again, and because I ran out of foodstamps 2 weeks ago [I finally get more next week but I'm unable to cook at all and we've run out of most easy to make things...]
life is a fuck and neither of my parents are really willing to help me so I've been hurting myself just trying to do daily things :')) fml
I'm so angry and tired and embarrassed because I'm having to beg for help again online because I got kicked off health insurance.
I have a brain MRI, endocrinology, a surgery consult, and a derm appointment I've been waiting like 8 months for and I'm so angry!!! like they didn't give me any warning and are saying I'm not eligible to get back on insurance and I'm just
I don't know what to do
I'm not sharing the link here because I'm straight up so embarrassed that I keep having to ask for help over and over and over again and I just needed somewhere to complain and vent for a moment because it's.. so exhausting
I don't have the energy or health to do anything about it in time[since everything but the MRI is upfront costs], and I'm sick of asking for help, but the brain mri and endocrinology are SO important, and the surgery consult and derm are too but at least those aren't like "this needs to happen NOW" [I hope so anyway, I've had this rash for a year now so idk if.. it's normal or serious or not. I would have already seen the derm but the place I was doing doesn't take my insurance anymore, and now that I'm kicked off I might have to get a new referral AGAIN]