Neither me nor any of the doctors know how.. but this past friday I fractured my rib!!
I'm going insane because I'm unable to draw, and it's literally the worst pain I've ever felt in my life.
[the most likely culprit is literally just from putting lotion on my back.... talk about embarrassing]

I ended up not going to the ER until monday because I've been in insurance limbo and couldn't afford an ER trip so I suffered through two days of wanting to throw up from pain before finally going 😭🥲
and then I had to go to the orthopedic urgent care/walk in clinic yesterday cause I suddenly couldn't breathe well, only to find out the fracture is a lot worse than the ER doctor lead me to believe [they even showed me the images this time.. they never do at the ER] and the ortho is SUPER concerned so I gotta get a ton of bloodwork! but my grandma flaked on bringing me today... and my SSDI court hearing is tomorrow soa aaugrsdegdgdfh

I was playing a lot of blue prince after I was FINALLY able to get into a semi-comfortable [ie; not excruciating] amount of pain at my desk with a weird pillow setup.. but now I'm hurting a lot again so I need to go bed-mode for awhile. [Which I can't even lay down!!! I have to be super propped up,, oh how I miss laying on my side and stomach]

anyway if I'm like missing for a month or so! that's why
this fracture has extremely messed up my life rn, and I'm unable to do anything at all I normally was doing to scrounge together super small amounts of cash.. so I'm back to begging on the internet so I don't end up in the ER again, and because I ran out of foodstamps 2 weeks ago [I finally get more next week but I'm unable to cook at all and we've run out of most easy to make things...]

life is a fuck and neither of my parents are really willing to help me so I've been hurting myself just trying to do daily things :')) fml