2025 was not very good for me. i was struggling and feeling like i was losing myself, and i felt like i was just a dumb lab rat to be mistreated. also felt more scared and paranoid, and feeling that i didnt rlly matter and shouldnt even have aspirations because there is no future for me.

i never really liked new years, but i feel more scared about the new year. i just hope that i can feel happier and change for the better.

however it was not all shit. i actually started becoming a lot more productive but its taken a long time. i feel more in touch with my emotional side, and feeling freer. i still worry heavily but i just hope i can survive 2026 and not lose it.

luv u all /platonic