Sssoooo in just the first couple weeks of 2026:

A loved one of mine was placed on suicide watch.

My spouse was diagnosed with cancer. It's very early stage, with treatment this should be fine, but I'm like an anxious chihuahua about it. Also, once you have had cancer, you will always have cancer, it's just in remission. You have to be vigilant about it for the rest of your life. So there's that.

Rent went up. It's fine. I understand. Cost of living is up for EVERYONE but I'm going to worry about it anyway.

Depression set in as I realized this should have been my graduating semester but since I didn't make it, I have to start all over again with another two year program, which will take three to complete because now I have to do different prerequisites and those have to be passed first. Great. I feel like such a winner right now.

School semester began and the teachers have no idea what's going on in anything. The syllabi won't load, all assignments say they were due at a date before the semester even began which makes all work submitted automatically late and they haven't figured out how to fix it, the school bookstore didn't order enough books...somehow... (don't they get advance warning about how many students are taking a specific course? How does this even happen?) annnnd one class says there are 96 assignments due the first week but the teacher says 'only do the ones with the orange dot' and there is no orange dot on our end but there is one on HER end so she just kinda...shrugged about it at first and that was a whole thing...

So yeah, a lot is going on right now. But I see y'all and you're awesome and I hope you're doing at least better than me right now!