idk I feel like writing a life update journal. Might be long, idk.

So while not new, I've definitely slowed down on art lately. |D I am trying to get back into drawing more again, but it's been a very stressful month for me so drawing has sadly been a low priority. I did at least get some character bio concept doodles done, but I wish I had gotten some bio pictures done too.

Anyways, cat update time. Tiger officially has stage three kidney disease, and like I previously mentioned only has months to live. It's been stressful and an adjustment to deal with. Some days he's fine and seems like he's doing well, while others he seems like he's sick. It doesn't help that we've had trouble with his phosphorus binder and getting him to eat his renal food (plus he seems to have some nausea and the medicine for that makes his mouth foam...idk it sucks). Thankfully we've gotten better at giving him his subcutaneous fluids, but that takes three of us to get it done (idk how the vets in all those videos get cats to sit still because Tiger does not).

It's definitely been a learning experience, and I've found a lot of great resources for renal cats online. However, I occasionally run into conflicting information, such as whether or not the current phosphorous binder is good/safe (most people online recommended it and the vet said it was okay but other sources say it's not???). It's also difficult to determine whether he gets nauseous because of the binder, high phosphorus levels, an upset stomach, or just because of his kidney disease.

So yeah...some days I feel like he's doing okay, and other days he won't be and I'll be stressing out about it at work. ;_; It's always on my work days too, and the weekends when most of the vets are closed.

Nina is still doing okay, but her medicine doses are slowing down, and her cat asthma is kinda getting more visible again. She can't stay on this medicine forever and will have to be off of it awhile once these doses are over before she can start it again. Her asthma attacks still terrify me, but outside that and her being mostly deaf she seems fine.

idk watching my childhood cats get old and deal with terminal health problems has been heartbreaking to say the least. ;_; I'd do anything to turn them into younger, healthier cats again but I know that's not possible. The worst part is that I feel guilty about Tiger's kidney disease. I wonder how long this had been going on. Would it be in a lower stage if we had caught it sooner? idk I just feel so guilty that we only noticed it when it almost killed him.

Anyways, I need to talk about other things or this journal is just going to be nothing but sad stuff.

I've been playing Digimon Story Cyber Sleuth: Hacker's Memory. I thought I played the original only two years ago but apparently it's been four years. |D It's really good! I really enjoyed the first game, and this one added more Digimon (though my party is very similar to my Cyber Sleuth one lol). At first I wasn't sure about the story, but I'm enjoying it a lot now that I've gotten 10 chapters into the game. I still think the first game's story is more iconic, but Hacker's Memory's story gets pretty good.

I was kinda sad that I couldn't play as a girl though, especially since you could in the previous game. However, the protagonist's friend Yu is definitely in love with him. You cannot convince me otherwise. So I guess I can excuse the lack of a female protagonist since there's a gay element here (with that said, the next Digimon Story RPG better let me play as a girl! >:U ).

Speaking of games, the Game Awards are coming up soon, and I've recently realized I've barely played any games from this year. |D Only Unicorn Overlord, Princess Peach: Showtime!, Another Code: Recollection, and the Paper Mario: The Thousand-Year Door remake...and the latter two are remakes. God if I had to pick a favorite from those, it would probably be Paper Mario, but that's sort of cheating since the original is one of my favorite games of all time. Otherwise, I guess Unicorn Overlord would be my favorite from this year??

But if we're talking favorite games I've played this year in general (including games released outside of 2024) it would probably be Rhapsody II. idk that game has flaws but playing it was pure serotonin to me.

While I doubt I'll be done with Digimon before this, Infinity Nikki releases early next month! I'm ready to see what the devs have been cooking for this one. B-) The mobile games are fun, but this game's teaser trailer is what made me interested in the series to begin with so I hope it delivers!

I do feel kinda bad for anyone who thinks it will be a cozy game though. ^^; Don't get me wrong, I'm sure it will be very cozy. However, the Nikki games have some pretty messed up stuff going on underneath the cute fashion battles and I doubt Infinity Nikki will be any different.

As for anime, I don't have a lot to say about anything I'm watching. Dandadan has been pretty fun though (you just gotta get past the first episode and its...sensitive themes. idk anyone planning to watch should look up a content warning first). Episode 7 was surprisingly heartbreaking, and the animation has been high quality throughout.

Other than that, the other seasonal anime I'm enjoying the most are Acro Trip and Puniru is a Kawaii Slime. Acro Trip is pretty silly and I wish it would get more than 12/13 episodes because it took the protagonist too long to get her powers. |D idk I want the manga!! It's finished and it's five volumes...I just need one of those manga publishing cowards to pick up the rights for it. Puniru is pretty fun too. It has a few things I don't like, but overall it's pretty charming and has some very fun animation.

One thing about working more and watching seasonal anime is that I'm really struggling to watch anything else. It's taken me like 7 months to watch half of Record of Lodoss War....and I think I'm gonna need to rewatch most of it before I finish it. ;_; There's a lot anime in my backlog that I want to watch, but somehow I got sucked into watching seasonals. I really need an anime season with no shows I want to watch, but there always seems to be a few anime that interest me every season (one time it was like 13...never again. |D ).

Anime backlog....video game backlog....character bio backlog...my life is nothing but endless backlogs I try and fail to complete. Technically I have a movie/tv show backlog too...and a manga/book backlog. idk too many things.

idk adulthood continues to be a struggle. Would be really cool if someone could prove the Republicans stole the election and get the results changed. 👀 Like that would improve my life big time. Surely some computer whiz out there can find evidence?

Seriously though, the voting machines in the swing states were run by Starlink, and now the guy who owns that is going to have a government position??? Does anyone else think that's as suspicious as hell???? God I wish the Democrats would challenge things instead of sitting there and letting this happen.

idk that's just a theory....a game theory